POP will be in May 23
after passing out i'll be serving till i ORD.
like i talk about in my previous post
i've been doing things alone
watching things around me change
people change.
my face book has been very quiet recently,
have not been posting much,
just browsing through profiles of people who said they do care about me
but i guess some of them are just lies
because if it's true
i'll not be alone now
but it's alright
as long as i got self confidence,
i guess i'll alright right?
hmmz..
Oh ya~~
my bunk mates were talking about who's gonna marry first the past few days
that made me think of myself
if i wanted a partner or not.
Frankly speaking,
i do want someone to be by my side
but i do not have any liking for anyone now
don't think i'll ever like anyone to the point that i love her and wanna be with her
even when i think of my sisters now
i'm like kinda prepared that they'll leave me someday
and i'll be all alone again.
i'm happy that i'm able to have them being by my side
and when i ask them out
they'll make time for me.
Maybe every single one of us is walking alone
Unable to tell anyone about the loneliness they are carrying
I've grown up and at least gotten good at faking a smile
But that's not what I envisioned happening
I know that for every tear there's a smile
But I always pretend when I'm out there
I can't be honest with myself
Failures, betrayals, bad news
I mix them all together and shield my heart
I pretended not to see
that's how I was able to go on living
But I still don't want to run away
I don't know the right answer
but I don't want to give up
Understanding each other means forgiving each other
Even confusion and anxiety are a part of us
I'll remember each tear i cry
and see if I can smile again
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